Today I started my new job. And I’m honestly too tired to write anything coherent here, but I wanted to get something down since it has been so long since I updated my blog.
I remain very excited about my new job, yet overwhelmed at all of the details that I need to learn and learn quickly. Tonight my brain is fried, so I’m taking a break before going to bed.
This new job requires me to both step into and out of my box. Into my solitary, introvert, work with words box. Out of that box because I know nothing of the terminology or procedures or really anything of what I’m doing. But I am very motivated and determined to learn. My family depends on me learning this job and doing over and above what I am capable of doing. Plus they need me, this will allow me to parent better.
It kind of reminds me of the disciples who were called to step out of their comfort zones (fishing, tax collecting, etc) and follow Jesus lead. How did they know that they could do it? How did they take the risk of leaving what was a sure thing, a sure job(like Riverside)–giving it completely up in order to follow someone they didn’t even know very well? I suppose the answer is faith.
So I am striking out in hopes that my faith will be strong and that God will be merciful to me and allow me to succeed. To succeed would me that I’d be in much better shape to take care of my crew financially. That would be a huge answer to an ongoing prayer.
But tonight I am bone weary. I think every muscle in my body aches and my side is hurting. My brain has reached overload capacity. And, I’m just tired. Tired of trying to figure out how to do both Riverside and this new job, until and if they bring me on full-time. Tired of working so hard very hard, all of the time. I wish my crew and I could take a vacation.
Good Grief, that sounded like whining! I’ll stop here.