Funny, that after writing a post about sleep, and its importance as a spiritual discipline, I find myself awake at 4:30 am, writing this post.
I was awakened in middle of the night tonight, and unable to go back to sleep, so after doing some other reading, I grabbed this book (The Biggest Story by Kevin DeYoung) that I picked up at TGCW16. I had read a couple of reviews on it prior to buying it, and even had downloaded some artwork from it, to use as wallpaper on my laptop. I actually bought it because some day my crew will have kids of their own, and I wanted a copy to give to them.
I’m a bit taken aback, though, at the experience of reading this here in the middle of this night.
As expected, the illustrations were phenomenal. Striking. I probably spent as much time looking at the pictures as I did reading the words.
But the words were not nothing, either.
At first, I was surprised to find myself a bit ramped up in reading them. In this very broad overview of the entire scope of the Bible, my mind started down the path of questions—why this way? Why did God choose this route? If He foreknew that this was how we would respond–disobedience, rebellion, sin–why even create us, only to have us sin and disappoint, and even anger, Him? How does any of this make any sense?
This was definitely not what I expected when I picked up this children’s book–I did not expect my brain to go there. It’s a children’s book. It shouldn’t have that strong of an impact on me.
But it did, and about 3/4 of the way through the book, I just nearly quit reading it. But I’m glad I didn’t, because in the end was the hope that I knew would be there, that I knew I would find in the end, because I know how the story goes, but sometimes I forget. Sometimes–not often, but sometimes, the questions and doubts and middle-of-the-night fears get the best of me. I know they shouldn’t, but they do. And, sometimes I need to see actual words that spell out the hope.
“We break promises, so God keeps His.
We run from God, so He comes to us.
We suffer for sin, so the Savior suffers for us.
“Our story is the story of God doing what we can’t, in order to make up for us doing what we shouldn’t….things fall apart so they can come together….(pg. 107)
“The Snake Crusher is coming back again to wipe away all the bad guys and wipe away every tear. .He’s coming to give us the home we once had and might have forgotten that we lost…..So keep waiting for Him. Keep believing in Him. Keep trusting that the story isn’t over yet….the Promised One never disappoints.” (pg 123)
Whew. Not nothing. Especially in the middle of the night.
There will be a day.